saviour (18 oct. 2024)

i wouldn't say there's any one piece of art that saved our life and really if i had to give credit to anything it would be The Crisses at kinhost.org for writing their United Front Bootcamp and really the whole website but they didn't save us. we read their words and we listened and we learned and then we said "it would be wrong to hurt this body, because it's not [just] mine" and they taught us that. they taught us kindness and compassion and unconditional love towards each other and i think that let us save ourselves

so no we've never had that moment of being so deeply touched by something that it saved us but but but earlier today we were thinking

there's a song called Russian Roulette by porter robinson and there's a line in it and it goes
Maybe this time I won't be alright, Maybe this time...
and that, like, that resonated. that hope that this will be the thing to break you because you don't want to be okay anymore and you think you're okay but really you're not

and we were thinking about it earlier today and how art is a form of time travel because it lets you talk with people over and over and you might think you're having the same conversation but every time you connect with art it's a new conversation a new lesson a new story
so we were thinking about that song and we had this really sudden mental image of HEY! DON'T BE A FUCKIN' IDIOT, IF YOU'RE PLAYING RUSSIAN ROULETTE, YOU'RE NOT ALRIGHT! not quite like that of course because our brain isn't into words that much but you get the gist

so yeah when i say we've never been saved by a work of art i don't mean that we've never had someone reach across time and space and say HEY! YOU'RE NOT OKAY, AND YOU'RE NOT ALONE! i mean like we saved each other and we're saving each other and maybe if we keep on doing that we'll save other people too